It is becoming increasingly clear how little we care about in my house. 
Wanted to be with any of them but are always busy, and I am clear that if I serve them when they need something, then I see and speak to me.
I'm so sad, I feel so alone.
I have a friend, I can not go out because there ..... who visit over and over, I have this phobia of feeling out into the street.
It is as much, so many problems and now I do it myself another that nonsense, I can not walk on the street because I panic.
So many times I tell the Lord to help me, without Him I can do nothing .... increasingly trapped in these four walls and with the feeling and conviction that I am nobody and never served at all.
My time is running out and did nothing significant with the ..